1. I love change. with that being said, it's easy to understand why I've been to not one high school, not two, but four different high schools (and counting). i'm crazy, i know. but i'll explain why i did this later on in this post.
2. I make music. not just to perform on a stage and share with other people, I make music primarily for myself. some people collect spoons or watch old movies to get through the day (idk) but i self medicate with music. I love the phrase "there is such thing as magic, it's called music." super true.
3. I like my life exactly the way it is. before you think to yourself "bullcrap" just hear me out. By saying this, I don't mean that I don't want it to change (see number 1) but that I like the changes that have happened, are happening, and will happen. i'm happy with my life because i'm not the person that my 13 year old self thought I'd be, and im happy with my life because I know i'm not the kind of person i want to be when im 18. i'm a much stronger and better person than i ever thought i'd be, but i've still got some growing up and learning to do, which is super scary and exciting at the same time.
Other than that, all you really need to know about me is that im hopelessly addicted to salt and vinegar chips and thrift shopping. hopelessly addicted.
so belle, what possessed you to switch schools a million times? well, i'll tell you.
I started out at Mountain View Highschool in Mesa, Arizona as a freshman. Had one real friend, got ok grades, and ended up in some sticky situations that i should've been smart enough to avoid. overall, it wasn't my best year. i thought i was going to be stuck there for a few more years but my family and i made the spontaneous decision to move to gilbert, and it was the best thing that has ever happened to me. (not that i loathe mesa or regret living there, queen creek was just the fresh start that i needed.) sooo, i started out my sophomore year as a Higley Knight and loved almost every minute of it. i was in the improv comedy troupe, ate churros for lunch every day, and had some incredible friends. but something was missing. even though i was happy, i felt like i was supposed to be somewhere else. ( on a side note, whenever people say "highschool is the best part of growing up" i want to punch them in the gut. highschool itself, even though it may be different for other people, will definitely not be remembered as the best time of my life.) anyways, after i was at higley for one lovely semester, i took a last minute plunge into Perry high school. I honestly can't say that i have one definite opinion about that school. I met new people and had alot of great experiences, but i dont think i would ever do it again. even though i was comfortable there, i still didnt feel like it was where i was supposed to be.
So i decided to give up on highschool and finish it up online so i could move on to bigger and better things. ( i thought)
then came along this guy (he who shall not be named, even though half my readers know exactly who i'm talking about) who convinced me to go to american leadership academy. as soon as i stepped onto that campus i felt like i was home. i made the top choir, immediately felt like i had made some wonderful friendships, and loved my classes and teachers. it really was too good to be true. i spent a great year there. i fell in love, made friends, learned new things about myself, won prom princess and took risks that i would've never even considered taking prior to being an ALA patriot. I signed up for a dance class, which was huge for me. i've always hated how un-athletic and uncoordinated i am. but that class taught me that the only opinion out there about me that matters is mine.
long story short i spent a crazy and picture perfect year there. up until right about may. my relationship with he who shall not be named started to fall apart for reasons that shall not be discussed, i started to felt like i was losing friends left and right, and i had no idea what i was going to do for senior year. I felt lost and frustrated with myself again. on top of all this, my family had started to talk about the possibility of moving to utah. Earlier this year even the thought of leaving queen creek drove me to tears. now i can honestly say i can't wait to pack up and get myself out of here. it's not going to be easy of course; im leaving behind a few wonderful and irreplaceable friends that have helped me become the person i am today, and ill miss them way too much.
but like i said, i love change.
now, as im writing this, people are putting offers on our house. it hasnt really hit me that in a month ill be a whole state away from everyone i love. but im sure it will soon. it'll be bittersweet, i know that for sure.
So why the heck am i moving?
good question.
simply put, there are hundreds more opportunities up there for my whole family, but more specifically for me and my dad. both his art (http://www.howardlyon.com/) and my music will have air to breathe up there. just in the few weeks that i was up in utah this summer, i had the opportunity to perform at Country Explosion, compete to perform at Stadium of Fire, record a single for a new TV show (details later), and meet the coolest people and bands in the entire world. some of those people and bands being Alex Boye, Ryan Innes, Mimi Knowles, The Show Ponies, Allred, and Jim Hollister. UNREAL. I cant even believe how incredible this summer was because of that. Utah has so much to offer me right now, and im going to seize every opportunity i can.
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